filled to the brim...

an·tic·i·pa·tion (an-tis-uh-pey-shuhn) [noun]
1.) the act of anticipating
2.) an expectation
3.) foreknowledge, intuition, and presentiment
4.) the use or assignment of funds, especially from a trust fund, before they are legitimately available for use
5.) [music] introduction on a weak beat of one note of a new chord before the previous chord is resolved

according to wikipedia, anticipation, or being enthusiastic, is an emotion involving pleasure, and sometimes anxiety, in considering some expected or longed for good event...or irritation at having to wait.

i'm filled to the brim with this stuff
(the good kind, not the irritated kind)

a few things currently anticipated:
finishing my first semester of grad school (thursday)
good times with friends - this weekend (and always, duh)
the wrapping and giving of gifts
baking goods/making food (and eating it)
time off from work/school to relax/recharge
strengthening my hope, joy, and relationship with my savior while awaiting his return. - this is what i need the most.

what more could a girl ask for?

so it's been a while...
i think i'll start this again.


life is (filled with amazing people) good.
work is (a place i get to do my homework) good.
school is (almost 1 semester down) good.

yay! and now, on top of all of that it's the holiday season?!!


i dare propose, what more could a girl ask for?

rejoice.

from wailing to dancing...He has clothed me with joy.

rejoice.

the joys of packing.

i'm packing to go down to dallas with some friends to see some other friends. and i love every one of them! since i love packing so much, i decided to procrastinate by...blogging. duh.

something i am praying right now is that the Lord may allow me to see with his eyes instead of my own, at least a little bit.

{i'm so happy i could...doo doo dododooo}

(just a few, for now)

(this is the start of my attempt to post regularly.)

a few things i appreciate about life:
people can't fake it forever.
also,
you can't force things.

{thank goodness.}

love.love.love.

goodnight.

i'm gonna be a team player...

This week I'm working at VBS and I love it!! Everyday the songs we sing get stuck in my head. Tonight it's "Team Player" (yeah yeah yeah...). I'm leading the 5th graders. I have the worst acting group of kids at the whole thing, but I absolutely love them. I didn't know I had the discipline skills and the teacher voice that I've discovered within me this week. I guess that's a good thing since I'm about to start grad school for teaching.

Something I've heard all along, but have really grasped this month (having my last two weeks at francesca's and then having the crazy 5th graders this week) is that the attitude and kind of day you are going to have truly is your choice. I've been amazed at how quickly my attitude can change (hopefully for the better). Now, I wonder why it took me so long to realize this. I also hope that I continue to utilize this new knowledge I've stumbled upon.

Speaking of francesca's, if any of you have heard of the midtowne armed robberies and are wondering...yes, I was still working there. And yes, I was working both days that the two robberies occured. Needless to say I had never been so excited to be quitting a job...armed robbery...gun point...hold up...all these things freak me out. I would probably just pass out...and pray on my way to unconciousness.

On a lighter note, this past weekend Krystal came down to visit. I looooove this girl. and I miss her. This is what happened most of the weekend:

1.) lots of drinking of the Grapette.

2.) lots of laughing.

goodnight.

P.S. - Last night I had a double-header in church softball. We won both games! Today my right leg is sore...I dont know why it's only my right, and not my left leg too. Weird.

sunshine and blue skies, baby.

so...after re-reading my post below. i apologize to anyone who actually read it. i realize that i'm a complete nerd. and i accept that. with open arms, actually.

June 15th is my last day to be employeed at Francesca's Collections. I have to admit, I'll miss the discount and the good times that were had with fellow employees. But that's all.

I got accepted into the UCA MAT program...so I guess I really am going to be a high school teacher, yay! Maybe I'm on the road to be a school counselor like I wanted to when I was younger after all...

a few things i've really been loving lately:
-andrew bird.
-cheesecake.
-perfumeria gal lip balm (strawberry).
-m.ward.
-sally hansen natural shine instant nail finish.
-genesis.
-the moon.
-grapette.
-motown.
-sunshine and blue skies, baby.


i guess that's enough for now.

proof...

(i know i graduated in December...but here is some proof.)

(me and the Mother of Mothers - Old Main.)


Pure as the dawn on the brow of thy beauty
Watches thy soul from the mountains of God
Over the fates of thy children departed
Far from the land where their footsteps have trod
Beacon of hope in the ways dreary lighted
Pride of our hearts that are loyal and true
From those who adore unto one who adores us
Mother of Mothers, we siiiing untoo yooouuuuuuuu!

(my "yep, i did it" look i gave to my brother...letting him know he can too.)

goodnight lovelies.

so that's that.

one thing i've learned since graduation: i really didn't (and don't) know myself as well as i thought i did. by this i don't at all mean that i wasn't myself before. i am just more myself now. and i am realizing that life really is a journey. i've heard it a thousand times before. but now i've learned it for myself.

today i brought upon myself stress and discouragement thinking about these things, my life, my passions, my future. i just started dwelling on the unhappiness i've found in my current job. then overwhelmed myself trying to come up with new solutions to my next job problem. what should i try to do? where should i try to do this? UGH!

i am still figuring myself out. i'm still learning what i am passionate about, what matters to me in life, and that God's plan is always good and always perfect...when i cannot see even a glimpse, it is there and it is perfect. i am choosing to truly believe that.

then, i think about all the ways i am so blessed in life. for instence: my dear family and my amazing female friends i have right now! they're so great. such a blessing, also, the fact that at least i have a job...i am blessed in countless ways. i should definately realize this daily and be thankful for them rather than dwelling on the only negative thing going on in my life. especially since i do know that God knows what He's doing...therefore, i should praise him that i don't! this way hopefully i'll always try to walk with him so that i may be receptive to the Spirit's leading...hopefully.

so that's that. for now, at least.

just as i suspected...

i just love springtime and summertime.
even though i don't technically get a summer anymore...
this time of year still feels different. and i like it.

why, you ask? well these are (or a few of) my reasons:
1.) baseball, of course (go braves!)
2.) driving with window's down
3.) lemonade and strawberry lemonade mmm...
4.) the warm breeze and sunshine
5.) church softball
6.) snow cones
7.) sitting on the front porch
8.) grilling out, heck yeah

the ony set backs are:
1.) tornados! ugh!
2.) and mesquitos.
3.) also, i have no backroading buddies here. sad.

any way you look at it...the pro's definately out weigh the cons!
just as i suspected...

goodnight lovelies.

a rose by any other name...

i should be in bed. work in the morning, you know...life after college stuff. however, i have been drawn to the blog...oh blogger. right now, i feel like i did when i was at obu and all my friends and i had xanga. probably because well...a rose by any other name...right? whatever.

since my last post a lot of things have changed. but,
since my last post a lot of things are still the same.
i know, i know...profound.
when you graduate from college you automatically become wise.
okay that may or may not be true.

good thing only zero people read my blog...otherwise i would be tempted to be embarassed about how random and pointless this post is. i just feel like there's a lot going on in my head...i just can't seem to catch any of it long enough to communicate in a coherent way. i've felt that way a lot lately. but then i think about how my mind works and it's probably better that i don't catch these thoughts, because if i did i would spend entirely too much time thinking about them, worrying about them, over-analyzing them and such...and i definately do not want to spend my time thinking about worrying about things i can't control, or have no power over...one day i would find that my life had passed by and all i did was thinking about it. ugh...what a wretched life that would be. therefore...i am choosing (and hopeing that i choose daily) to have faith.

i'm thankful that faith is such a powerful thing. my faith gives me hope that i will actually live my life and experience amazing things and have meaningful relationships with people...i read once that the journey in life is more important than the destination. this faith helps me to embrace the journey. ha..embrace it bloggers..embrace. my faith in Christ, in believing his promises also brings me peace. what more could a girl want in life?

anyway...it's late. i'm probably delirious and if anyone actually reads this and it makes sense, i'll be...shocked.

goodnight lovelies.
leah marie.